Seek the Giver

I don’t know about you, but I have a tendency to get really obsessed over things — especially when these things fill me with hope, or make me really happy.

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For example, my husband recently bought tickets for a local lottery draw. It’s one of those big ones where the tickets aren’t cheap, and the prizes are things like $25K cash, a vehicle, or –the grand prize– a house! We have never entered one of these lotteries before.

Generally, I don’t put much stock in lotteries, anyway, as I believe that God prefers that we earn our income through the work we do. So, when hubby first bought the tickets for this draw, I didn’t give it much thought. However…

Our family of four has been living in a house that is practically falling apart at the seams; this house has a lot of major issues, and we have never been in a position, financially, to be able to fix them (despite hubby working 48+ hours per week, and even when both he and I were working full-time).

I have been praying, for years, for God to help us move to a better house… one with a bit more space and not so many issues. I’ve never expected, or asked for, anything extravagant or brand new; just a house that would give us peace of mind, and allow me to play hostess (I love doing so, but we don’t have the room for it, here).

So, the fact that this lottery includes the possibility of winning a house (and a mortgage-free one, at that!), I was drawn in, despite myself. And much as I didn’t want to let them, my hopes have gone sky-high.

Of course, I know it’s still a lottery. And I am prepared to thank God, whether we win or lose, as I know and trust that He, alone, knows what’s best for us.

Yet, I can’t help but think that maybe, just maybe, we could win. It would be an absolute answer to my prayers! After all, I believe that God is sovereign, and ultimately He is the one who determines the outcome of the lottery. He already knows who will win, and –as I keep reminding my family– if God wants us to have that house, then it’s already a done deal (even though the actual draw date is a month away, yet).

But here’s the thing: As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, I have a tendency to get carried away and obsessed over things that fill me with hope. And, the possibility of having this long-time prayer answered in such a BIG way has me (obviously) majorly hopeful!

Thankfully, God is oh-so-patient, gracious, and merciful, and He has led me to read online articles that have helped to calm me down and to see what’s really important in all of this. He gently reminded me that I should be seeking Him (the Giver), not the (possible) gift.

Delight yourself in the LORD, and He will
give you the desires of your heart.(Psalm 37:4)

Thinking of this verse (above), the other day, I realized that I’ve been “delighting myself” in thoughts of winning the house, more than I’ve been delighting myself in the Lord.

I recently looked up what it means to “delight yourself in the Lord”. And, from the various articles I read, I learned that it basically means to “invest yourself” in the Lord, and to align yourself with Him. Another article said it means to “soak our minds in and appreciate the traits, attributes, and works of God“, and to “get engaged in what God is doing“. {It’s interesting, to me, how sometimes it really helps to take Bible verses apart and get a simpler definition, in order to truly grasp their meaning!}

I have known, for quite some time, that this verse (Psalm 37:4) isn’t saying that God will give us anything we want; that what it does mean is that, when we invest ourselves in God (delight ourselves in Him), our desires begin to line up with those that He has already had for us, and so then He is happy to grant the fulfillment of those desires! In essence, it is learning to genuinely want what God wants for us — to say “yes” to His plans for our lives (“Not my will, Lord, but Yours be done.“)

In other words, it comes back down to surrender and trust — being fully confident that:

…and that, even if we don’t get the answer that we were hoping & praying for (or, the answers look different from what we’d expected), God is still good.

God always answers our prayers. Sometimes He says yes, sometimes ‘no’, and sometimes He says wait. Often times, He seems to say, “Will you trust that I have something better for you?

Sure, if we don’t win that house, I will be mega-disappointed! But I will also know, then, that God obviously has something else in mind for us. We will only win if our getting that house is in alignment with God’s plans for our lives.

So even though I’m praying to win, and even though I know that God knows how beneficial that house could be to our family, I am also choosing to say, “Lord, I trust You, no matter the outcome. Not my will, but Yours be done.

In the meantime, while we wait to hear about the results, I am learning to seek the Giver — not the gift.


5 thoughts on “Seek the Giver

  1. Great post! You are a wonderful writer and your messages are always inspiring! Keep up the great work – you have so much to share that the world needs to hear!

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